Crying alone is sad. 

It is so sad that it makes you wanna cry even more.

Ever since I was a kid, I never once cried in front of someone. I never told them about my worries, with the exception of one or two people. I never had to urge to talk to another person about my problems because I'm not used to opening up to anybody. 

I handled my problems alone. I comforted myself. I made myself feel better. When I cry, eventhough I want to call someone and cry with them, I can't find anyone in my contact list that I feel I can cry to. Therefore, I cry alone. When I cry, I gave myself a lollipop, telling myself that everything will be alright tomorrow. 

But, crying alone is sad. It makes you wanna cry even more. So I try not to cry.

Because crying alone is sad. 

Because that's how I've been living my life for the past 19 years. 

Alone.

Now, at this moment. My eyes hurt. Tears wouldn't stop flowing. 

I feel lonelier.

For a person who has been accustomed to loneliness to feel even lonelier, is sad.

Too sad.